Binary Revolution Radio uploads bring back memories

I have been slowly but surely uploading episodes of Binary Revolution Radio to our downloads module after a long drought of not having a valid archive.

I customized the section include air dates and show hosts and I have been copying over show notes (which has been an adventure since HTML does not always play well with BBCODE) and as I do this I am reminded of a lot of great times with great friends. I ended the show after 4 seasons because towards the end, it started to become a chore and a burden because expectation were there every week for people and I was trying to keep everyone happy but at the cost of my own enjoyment of the show. When I realized this, I knew that it was time to end it.

But man, while I was doing it, even the last stressful episodes, I had a blast. This was one of the funnest things that I ever did in my life. It was me along with some of my best friends just talking tech and hacking and just being ourselves and doing what we do. We were thinking, challenging boundaries, questioning authority and taking stances on what we believed in. We were learning and teaching at the same time. We were laughing, joking around, and even, on some pathetic occasions, singing. I bore my soul on that show sometimes. I look back and do not regret anything I ever said on that show and if you really want to know who StankDawg really is and what he is all about, just go back and listen to these shows.

That was me.

That *is* me.

I am not, nor have I ever been, fake and I know exactly who I am. You will not find me saying or doing one thing and then going on livejournal or a blog somewhere and pretending to be someone that I am not to people that don’t even know the real me. If you listened to those episodes, you already know the real me.

Holiday break

I am finally getting around to posting about my holiday break and the end of my catastrophic 2009. Fittingly, 2009 started in the emergency room and it ended in the emergency room. I guess that is appropriate. Regardless of my 2009 health events both my family and I are perfectly healthy and looking forward to a good 2010.

One of the things I was most excited about was finally getting to see my new 4 month old niece for the first time. This is my sisters first child and while I may be a bit biased, she is a beautiful baby girl and you can’t help but smile looking at her. Here she is wondering who is this wolf/dawg creature that is kissing her. It’s the beard…chicks dig the beard.

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Here we both are chilling on the couch both with our respective headgear.

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I also didn’t waste any time getting her starting on her hacking career by teaching her the basics of phone phreaking.

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Both pictures were taken before the haircut so these were the last photos of a creature that might just belong on an episode of MonsterQuest. Due to the aforementioned emergency room visit, it put me behind on a lot of things including the haircut and the fund raiser (which I will wrap up this week, I promise). I *did* get the hair buzzed after I got back home and I did get it filmed to be released in a future episode of HackTV:PWNED. I also have a few photos that I took with the cameraphone that I will post in the Financiers section of the forum.

I went to visit my grandmother, whom I have spoken of before, but they put them to sleep in the nursing home very early after supper (it was only 5:30 PM) so she was already in bed when I arrived and I wasn’t able to spend much time with her this trip which was disappointing (and entirely my fault for not staying an extra few days to see more of her). I regret not making more time for her.

In addition to spending time with my real family, I spent time with my hacking family as well. I got together with long time friends logosx, zer0db, and meaflux. We hung out and caught up on real life drama (thats what friends do) and talked tech and hax (thats what hackers do) and I missed hanging out with them every month at the BR561 meeting. Luckily I stay in touch with them all and pledge to stay even closer to them in 2010.

My rebirth is complete and I am ready for a fresh start on life. I will be posting some big news about my future sometime within the next month so stay tuned for a new direction not only for me personally, but also for the entire binrev family of sites.

I think I officially lost my man club card today

Yeah, so I guess I fail at being a normal red blooded American male. This chick that I was chatting up on one of those dating sites who lives like 5 minutes away from me pretty much offered a FWB relationship (I only recently learned that acronym myself so I provided a link to it for others who are as clueless as I am) and I said no.

I guess most people would consider that a perfect relationship. A good looking girl who wants sex with no strings attached and she is even conveniently located near where I live? What the hell is wrong with me? I wanted to. I thought about it, I will be honest. But I just am not looking for a “hook-up” at this point in my life. I am looking for “the one”. I tried to convince myself that I can have both…I mean, who doesn’t want to put a different game on “free play” while they wait to buy the game that they really want?

And if anyone got that last reference (you may think you did, but you probably didn’t unless you are over the age of 30), then you really are a geek.

I hereby turn in my man card.